Day 33: Friday, 12 April
For the choir director: A psalm of David.
13 You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body
and knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex!
Your workmanship is marvellous—how well I know it.
15 You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion,
as I was woven together in the dark of the womb.
16 You saw me before I was born.
Every day of my life was recorded in your book.
Every moment was laid out
before a single day had passed.
1 O Lord, you have examined my heart
and know everything about me.
2 You know when I sit down or stand up.
You know my thoughts even when I’m far away.
3 You see me when I travel
and when I rest at home.
You know everything I do.
4 You know what I am going to say
even before I say it, Lord.
5 You go before me and follow me.
You place your hand of blessing on my head.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too great for me to understand!
7 I can never escape from your Spirit!
I can never get away from your presence!
8 If I go up to heaven, you are there;
if I go down to the grave, you are there.
9 If I ride the wings of the morning,
if I dwell by the farthest oceans,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
and your strength will support me.
11 I could ask the darkness to hide me
and the light around me to become night—
12 but even in darkness I cannot hide from you.
To you the night shines as bright as day.
Darkness and light are the same to you.
And when I wake up,
you are still with me!
17 How precious are your thoughts about me, O God.
They cannot be numbered!
18 I can’t even count them;
they outnumber the grains of sand!
Who am I? Where do I come from? This psalm supplies answers, and I’ve re-arranged the verses accordingly.
God knows me. He knows me in a way I cannot fathom – my beginning to my end. The psalmist restricts his meditations to the span of his life, but God planned us from the very beginning, before time, before Creation. I was there at the beginning, though I did not know it. Nor did I know about the time I was conceived, growing secretly, coming into the light at my birth, or my very early days. My first memories were not of the God who created me. And yet his hand was upon me.
The opening verses tell of a God who knows us intimately. He knows more about me than I know myself. As David says, such knowledge is too much for me to handle! As God inhabits all that He has made, it is impossible for me to find a place in the cosmos where He cannot see me. I cannot hide. When God said, ‘Where are you?’ to Adam and Eve, he already knew. There has been only one moment on earth where God in heaven was not to be found, and that was when Jesus was on the cross, for Father God was not able to look upon the sin that Jesus became for us.
Where am I going?
Is a child that does not make it to birth a separate case?
How far ahead does God know what I will be saying? Is there a script of my words?
Father God, I can only repeat the words above. You have examined my heart, and You know me. Show me how I can know You more. Amen.
Far too wonderful.
Scripture quotations are taken from the Holy Bible, New Living Translation, copyright ©1996, 2004, 2015 by Tyndale House Foundation. Used by permission of Tyndale House Publishers, Inc., Carol Stream, Illinois 60188. All rights reserved.